october 7. home. should i stay or should i go. mahnwache am tessinerplatz, the epicenter of my deepest fear rage anger darkness, on the one year anniversary of what would become my first live streamed nakba shoa holocaust sarajevorwanda. 6pm. sig. gsi. ch n il flaggen only, no words. just dark dark dark feelings. i had always hoped it would have ended by now. not sure why. it didnt. ceasing the fire. in any conflict between any party always first commonsensical step.
except for palestine. gaza. 365 days of exceptions. from geneva. united nations. conventions. principles. 365 days of parallel worlds, always existed, always persisted, exposed. 365 of parallel standards n values n words that suddenly have lost all meaning. human rights. right to defend. right to exist. right to resist. right to breathe. right to live.
i want to forgive my swiss jewish brother. i see him. always did. jerusalem-endingenlengnau-baden-zurich-bern-genf-brunau-schwitz-1945. expelled caged beaten up killed for a crime he never committed. but i also see my palestinian sister. gaza. bleeding. 1947-now. expelled caged beaten up killed for a crime she never committed. i knew what was happening. the beatings the violence the abuse. it affected the whole family, her sisters yemen lubnan suria mama were hit too. i knew about it. early on. I knew he was involved. but i stayed silent. i was complicit in my silence. since oct 7. i cant. no more.
habibi. achi. we need to talk. have a walk. eye to eye. heart to heart.
oct 7. nova. nakba. vilna. warsaw. gaza. eye for many eyes. lets start.
to talk. about what happened. before. so that we can acknowledge. responsibility. for our shared yet separated history. of violence. war. persecution. execution. of many many operations n final solutions. from endingen, lengnau selnau auschwitz to gaza. heute. morgen. manana. demain, bokra, shana nova tova. yalla. yalla.
violence needs to end. violence harms my life. violence harms your life.
oppressing=violence. silencing=violence. denying=violence. gaslighting=violence. intimidating=violence. bombing=violence. starving=violence. dehumanizing=violence. checkpoints=violence. judenstern=violence. existenzrecht=violence. silence=violence.
human=life form interwoven with all life. you=human. i=human. you hurt me you hurt.
you=swiss jew (sig.gsi.). you have been hurting me for a long time. every time i wanted to talk about it you looked walked talked away zurich telaviv id ferie allez retour gaza bleeding comme toujours. bim bam boom hamas hamas palestinos habibi no quierendendermas. until oct 7 happened.
1 200
shock. anger. rage. revenge. fire. oct7-now. 365 days. 12 months. one year.
1 200 + 40 000++ 1 200+++
tachles. chalas. arabe. babe. lets end. fresh start.
ich kam. ich saw. ich weinte. oct 7. 6pm. tessina. de mitte kefiyyeh isch wide da.
katia. berta. bene. vida. leah. laila. nova. gaza. bleeding. bleeding. bleeding. allah.
who? akbar. alam. alarm. polizei. wachsam. speaker. gsi.sig. ic. zrh. el. elon. ellen. eva. ngelika. blaue fishe. blaue sterne. river. sea. hatikva. schweizer. kreuz. ion. atom. kern. leuchtstreifen. kristall. stern. leuchtend. gelb. bluetend. wuetend. hell. wach. bethlehem beirut haifa jerushalaim alquds nasragaza. toujours pret. toujours la.
pret de partir. finir. pleure chanter danser mourir. nicht bei denen. bei uns. jetzt. hier.
schweizer. psalm. hatikva. mann. waffen. verteidigung. existent. terror. liebe. praesent. 45 to 48. sicherheit vs recht. zrh-tlv. wie du mir so ich wir. verletzt.
7 oktober. terror. gemetzel. shoa. geiseln. tote maenner. frauen. kinder. geissen.
hamas. hamas. hamas. no mas. nunca mas. a donde vas. gaza. gaza. vs gaz.
rewind oct 7. 5pm. so should i stay or should i go? siri anyone i dunno. i don’t want.
feel more pain. sit. breathe. inhale. exhale. lily. leash. leah. train. tram. enge. yalla.
do something uncomfortable. every day. but this? on october 7. yes. because. allah.
akbar. then your biggest anxieties dreams n fears. of humans. of sig. of gsi. ici.
so i went. with lily and kefiyyah. the swiss guy from iskandariyyah. walking down the steps of the river of svizer to the sea of tessin. emotions: fear. unsafe. hated. mistrust. disgust. anger. and a tiny little spark of. curiosity. of. what if me met. looked each other. in the eye. so many eyes. glancing pointing staring at me. jehuda n jehudis mamas babas zios of zuri.
i try to practice eye contact. helps me seem more human. i can’t. not today.
i spot berta. she is speaking to someone. i wait patiently until she sees me.
hug. i am so happy to see you. i am really happy that you’re here. me too.
warmth. home. love. safety. suddenly a ray of sunlight torching the dark day from behind.
she appears. mama. malka. katia. achi. achti. sister. habibti. hug. golden shivering eyes.
we sit. we talk. we weep. we hug. mama, mama, here, hobb. lily. sit. home. dihei.
i hear the speeches. i listen. stroke lily. try holding back my tears but weep.
at the lost sons and daughters. of october 7 vilna warsa and others.
drowned in the sea, of you did to me i will do this to youweep. not my responsibility.
sig. gsi. tsuri. geschter nova gescher gaza broken heal please. bridges jisrs needed here.
keywords recorded: oct 7. greulich. massaker. 1200. juedinnen und juden. holocaust. hamas. terror. existenzrecht. israel ausloeschen. bibel. thora. the chosen people. auserwaehltes volk. recht. me. here. missing: you. her. him. them. over there.
sitting weeping i found comfort. in a rising circle. surrounded by a menorah of light. of women. frauen. feminas. dominas. berta. katia. lily. mama. rom rom roms bollags bloch leah laila the swiss jewish woman. sister. daughter. mother. malka. what happened to her. trudy. buergerin vs juedin. from zurich to falastin.
how did we feel? i felt uncomfortable. angespannt. muede, traurig, verbrannt. katia was concerned how she would be seen sitting next to me. she knows many people and more people know her. it added to my discomfort because i didnt want her to feel uncomfortable. but i also didn’t want to leave her. where would i go? nowhere safe. nowhere home. it felt like a torture chamber that i entered with my free will.
black kefiyyeh. should i wear it or not. i knew that it would make people uncomfortable. but i wore it every day since oct 7 in mourning and solidarity with its victims. how could i not. christian muslim arabi jahudi mama tot.
takeaways: trauma. therapy. katia said it, she feels. hears. listens. weeps. with me. stretch yourself. yoga. life. spagat. get ready for many many more uncomfortable encounters talks arguments debates moments to walk speak dance with the darkest darkest moments of your life fuer eine neue freie menschliche schweiz. welt. halb. sonne. halb. mond.
yalla. get ready. move. get ready. parat. set the stage. clean ya dishes ordnung spaaaaaat. always immer immer spaat. yalla yalla move engez engels gaza burning pressing. plan. plan. plan. organize. your thoughts. your wohnung. your life. breathe. in. out. repeat.
plan: sig. gsi. israeli. jahudi. ja. israeli apartheid. occupation. starvation. hostages. gas n bombs n genocidal nation. nein. existenz. ja. recht. ja. alle. ja.
challenge: how
answer: you. dina. dina. dina. kadiadinaniela. ruth. leah. yael. berta. deborah. shelley. candice. anjushka. feldman. lion. fierce. rochelle. brave. unorthodox. jewish. woman.
targets: ellen rachel luethy roger spielmann arthur braun schawinksi cohn schweig baba mama sista bruda oma opa onkel tante from trauma grief anger rage to a new beautiful human dawn.
prioritize. plan. rationalize. autistic question. how do you prepare prioritize life in a genocide? sit. still. breathe. repeat. pain. killers. less pain. less killers. sit. with it. loving. burning. present.
to do. list. to do list. to. do. list. repeat. do. to. list. list to do. do. do. move. dance. breathe. laugh. cry. go. system error: sensory overload. cool down. repeat. decisions decisions. little. big. postponed. impulse. control. pilot.
modes: villanelle. flight attendant. robotic mama. eve. pilot. captain. queen. elle.
other modes: stalling. spiraling. freezing. fighting. fleeing. falling.
to do: beautify. place. create. place. garden. light. around you. home. kitchen bath lily do. move. dance. sing. talk. clean. divine. order. you.
flashback tessin: the most stinging eyes came from those young jewish men. agitated. nervous. reminiscent of the rage of a boy whose sister was badly beaten. it was discomforting because i never experienced it. the beating. the angry brothers stares. i couldn’t. hurt. a fly. keeping myself wondering just one thing. why.
observation: they came in slowly fading in watching observing discreet scary me me. assimilated. fine clothing. passing. swiss. gemeinsam einsam. in a way. no joy. no hurray. but where were agudas achim? the wiedike jude n the fierce wigged ladies? shapshot of zurich jews babies. veraengstigt. vereint. gespalten. misstrauisch. daheim. gemeinsam. bitter. wuetend. allein.
michi kommt. alarm mayday. aircraft stalling. welcome achi. steer wheel control. welcome aboard. flight attendant stewart pilot. yes habibi el al in trouble, engines failing. ans ruder. bereit. gaza. tel aviv. befreit. are you ok? yeah I am. I’m fine. are you ok? yes I am. one of the most dreadful questions I’ve been facing since oct 7 because I hate lying. But what can I tell them? That my heart has been bleeding watching more children more mothers more human limbs ashes plastic bags filled with the dripping remains of humanity. That I struggle to maintain a normal life n keep my sanity. That I often wish I was never born in world lacking empathy, kindness and clarity, repeatedly failing to see the link between yourself and hannah’s banality.
“You really should see a therapist, I’m getting worried”. Thank you dear. I will. I’ve been worried too for a long time. Terrified. Sad. Depressed. I hope that one day, you can see me.
“we’re plagued by dead language and dead stories that serve people whose aims are nothing short of a dead world. its not enough to stand against these dissemblers. there has to be something in you. something that hungers for clarity. you’ll need that hunger because if you follow that path soon enough you’ll find yourself confronting not just their stories, but your own." ta-nehisi coates. the message.
ta nehisi. instructions to all black brown purple people to start write. tell our story. from pain to glory. spot on. gaza. burning burning. yalla. yalla. thank. you. habibi.
but how do i write with so many crazy monkeys in my mind. sit. still. breathe. stretch. meditate. repeat. order. clean your home. do your dishes. dress up. class. action.
question: how to dismantle patriarchy toxic masculinity n white supremacy? a: start with gaza. now. instructions: efficient. sharp. alert. present. no more time to waste. with unsettled decisions. memories. conversations. about the past. present.
look at your nodes. past episodes. of connection. capture. wrap. heal. seal.
fire fire burning. i know. let it be. sit with the deepest pain. here.
you n me.
Objective: Understand what zionism has done to me. to us.
Instructions: Look at your nodes. connect. look at your history. reflect. about what happened. what really happened. violence. violence. violence. mad. violence. violence. violence. sad. injustice. baba. mama. oma. tot. in vila. in warsaw. in berlin. in hamburg. in paris. roma. bella italia. bulgaria. arabia. persia. iran. to gaza.
Challenge: how to reconcile your past with your present. sig. gsi. cnn. bbc. nzz. tagi. bundesrat. parlament. representatives. voices. faces. humans. sending more n more bom bom booms to ga ga gaza libana rabia.
First step: sit. with the pain. deep. breathe. in and out. branch. out. to a whole new universe of how love could be. could feel like. if you let me live. breathe. dance. go to school. become a teacher. grow. blossom.
with you.
Targets: Mama. Oma. Dina. Dina. Ivo. Pa. Robby. RoShelley. Rom. Rom. Britney. Burak. Adam. Anne. Eve. You.
Outcome: Love. So much more love.
Method: Organization. Individual and Collective. Connect. Heal. Connect. Heal. Repeat.
Case Study: Switzerland. Bingo. Bingo. Concrats. Unicorn Country. Innocent. Achi Ya? Geile. Siech. Genau. Lengnau. Endingen. Eve. Adam. Wilhelm. Tell. Apfel. Schuetz. Schutz. Im Krieg. Viele Bunker. Heil. Sieg. Au. Schwitz. Er. Nazi. SS. au. au. au. sterity. reich. sehr reich. zureich. zurecht. voelkerrecht. zuercherrecht. araberrecht. musilmannerrecht. gschtampfte. albaner. italiener. algerier. vedammte. jud. as. ass. cake. ebe. deet isch s problem. ass vs cake. chuchi. chaschtli. bi mier deheime noed bi dir. mir. ihr.
vs
mir. amira. mohamed. khalida. baba. mama. amr. achi. ani. ana. teymour.
+ every black brown beige purple slavic person + all women
+ many more
- you
so today i understood what it means to be black. it means to live in a constant state of suffering. dark. black. void. i broke my hand. lily broke the leash. jumped again. for life. i neglected her. she wants to run smell meet live. with me. here. i have been absent. freeze. paralysis. anger. pain. hiding. slain. villain. vs elle. lily. fierce dona queen vanilly. you. gaza. gaza. you. gaza. you.
step 1: you. breathe. in. out. present. focused. alive.
step 2: life. gaza. gaza. life. write. pause. breathe. write. repeat.
pathway to healing: from white male fragility to dark black hostility to namibia africa america oceania pangea to vilna warsa shoa white european german jewish supremacy to nakba to gaza bleeding healing us all.
14. october. notfall. station. hand aua aua need help maybe broken. arbeit? nein. unfall. ja. versichert. nein. alarm, alarm you have to pay that honey, no money no arm. dealers. insurance. helsana. call. rueckwirkend auf 1 oktober versichert tutto bene alles klar. shapshot: lots of people. all walks of life. feeling sick broken hurt ill ill ick. aufnahme name versicherung konto yalla yalla minus pronto. lots of viruses n bacteria swirling around. no mask mandate. for visitor n staff. leaving her vulnerable. the lady in front of me. with a strained aching transplanted lung crying for help. singing to the hearts of all of us. to tell us. please. stop. hurting. me. two bankers. insurance brokers. something buz buz busy. hand broken running to catch flight. ba. united. swiss. air canada. lx. sr. sa. airline this airline that delta gamma beta vs gaza. now. sitting next to them. awkward. so i continued to write. physicians. looking at 3 d pictshas of our organs all day long. weisse kittel. birkenstock. overall. ct scan pt scan ptsd men man mam. gips. plasters. ventilators. lung transplants. failing. saving. gaza. me. politics. insurance. competition. weapon. world bank. bits. protection. gaps. spot on. agreed. indeed. we fight. we flight. we bleed. climate. deals. swiss. government. slide between the gap. gap. stop. breathing. pick them up. took the hit. yes they did. doctor. ambulance. debriefing. casualties. collateral damage. emergency. trauma. live. alive. no more. silence. stop. the. violence. lots a goeman doctors at uzh. ironic twist of history hah. no smoking in the patio. no masks in the hallways, go. you have come a long way in avoiding. dropping. anxiety. let the last bits fade away to meet your pure soul. traum. trauma. mama. gone. now. whatsapp. messenges. notes. calls. ay ay roger. teymour you here? no? yes i am. thank you for waiting. waiting for so long. im hurt. hung. over. on. board. now. technical understanding conversation mom gets annoyed her next job career man. job heartbeat acclaimed people regulators central banks lawyers legal counsels.
vs.icc. icj. icu. zh.
she is hurt. she has been hurting for a long time. you have been hurting her. we all did. its time we stop. steven is not alright. no one is.
more people in the second waiting room. you can take a seat here. be right with you. inshallah. soon. white men. white kittles. white goeman kittens. white brits. black suits. money koffer airline broken hand bunney. all in one room. waiting for salvation. ambulanz station. radio. scan. zone of comfort. interest. swiss. nation. beep. beep. beep. beep. pause. breathe. in out. repeat. uk. ok. us. new way. scan. heal. go home. lily. walk. talk. play.
this is what witnessing a live genocide does. me getting angry at lily. making her responsible for my inability to take care of her. she is innocent. we arent. but we try. some of us do. i. cry.
not crazy. doctors. dentists. business. men. working. lazy. he’s got the beauty. hamilton. two fingers to the irs. wait he is irish. i think. invest personal money in something you believe in. take a leap of faith. jump. grow. random observation: men spend a lot of time talking about how to get more money. maximize. optimize. win win. realize. profit. why do you think is that. capitalism, honey. give me your wallet i need your money.
6.30 pm. still waiting. room gets filled with more n more patient n impatient humans. german asian doctor. no room, gotta treat you in the waiting room. in front of everyone. get naked. tell your story. yalla. i fell on the floor. lily jumped boom concrete floor. notfall. cry for help when you need it the most. notfall. teuer. expensive. lengthy. wait. wait. more. wait.
7.40. tick. tock. clock. ticking. lily waiting home calling me here silly.
we dont have a room. tell the story of your fall everyone listening hall o elo anyone here health care gone missing habibi dear. 7.45. another bomb on gaza. 7 men. 7 kids. 7 women. puff. gone. here.
offers. salaries. travels. us. uk. switzerland. goemany. france. espania. near.
you. me. arabi. jahudi. masri. swizri. is. me.
river. is you. sea. me. free.
gaza. gaza.
gaza.
g.
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oct 7-oct14. one year. one week. boom boom boom boom. tueren ohren augen zu. reich. too comfortable. too. aware. to care. ju. de. us. providebit. bom bom bombs. blue fish star of david. vilna warsa schwitz al lah gaza. 20 min tagi nzz blick tele tsueri srf drs gaga vs gaza. medie macht gwalt geg mama. you could feel their inconvenience, my inconvenience, of waiting for four hours to get an answer. that youre safe. that youre broken. that you can heal. imagine us waiting in the same room. in gaza. crazy right. yeah i know. welcome to my world. our world habibi, please dont go.
8pm. silence radio. no food. some water. no white coat man. notfall. uzh. conclusion. never again. avoid it at all costs. sad mirror of the violent white man. viele kranke. viele kassen. wenig kassierer. mehr patienten. mehr gewalt. mehr geld. mehr krankheit. mehr leiden. weniger leben und leben lassen. lily wartet.
9pm. immer noch allein. im zimmer. ohne doktor lily frei. five hours gone. more to come. still in pain. not home. to do to do. lily gassi love you. good news is i can type. words thoughts feelings life. lost its meaning, long ago,i know i know. we will heal we will process we will progress find home. in a new place where icu. i hear you feel you respect too. protect nourish cherish flourish. blossom sing laugh n cry. about the days when we forgot to remember why. we’re here. we’re there. we’re all over time and space. connected. separated. harmed. killed. wounded. broken. finding more and more cracks. if sunlight. to guide is from the dark to a new morning night.
21.06. still silence radio. white kittens n babies gone through the door. beep beep youre still alive. no doctor, rescue, nurse in sight. welcome to gaza honey zurich no more. aerzte dottores talking with each other alot. patients waiting patiently for their time, for their slot. to fly away. released from suffering. from heaven to hell.
habibi achi. ochti. brother. sista. emanuel wyler rebekka.
how many bombs. limbs. leah. dead israeli mamas in gaza.
can we take. to feel. pain. inside. heal. live. breathe. live.
safe. secure. protected. respected. free.
robby writes jeff sa good boss owner
imperfect but principled rich nice loner
never interfered with what we write n see
until his column thrashed it all no yes vote kamala in the fall
ammiel hirsch. emotionially damaged. jewishly.
white. rabby. zionist. angry. baba. yelling.
justice. honesty. decency. for all people.
if all that collides with israel, so be it.
we wanted you to be zionists.
we did not mean. tikkun olam.
palestinian life cacher haram.
Home. Mama. My religion.
Halbmond. Stars. decision.
To give. forgive. be grateful.
For allah. life. beauty. mars.
venus. jupiter. earth. world.
Bridge. Between ost n west.
us. animals. roaches. rats. n the rest.
of humanity sinking in the comfort of hannahs banality.
war. war. mine. es. war.
einmal ein kind. mensch. leben.
geben. vergeben. nehmen und geben.
wie du mir so ich dir. liebe vergebung unser hier.
Islam. Befrriedung. Frieden. Freiheit.
Allah. Alles. Nichts. Same.
Licht. Wasser. Sonne. Blume.
Growing. Crawling. Shining. Flowing.
Spring. River. Sea. Ocean. Breeze.
Air. Floating. Flying. Circling. Rising.
Boom. Boom. Dying. Seeds. Gaza.
Home. mama. my religion.
Leah. malka. light. vision.
of a tree. of candles. of love n light.
intertwined stars. corners. dove.
She carries the weight. of pain love emotions.
Strollers. groceries. careers. high heels. fierce wigs.
Malka. dona. amira. reina. mama. dina. laila. leah.
eve.
guilty. of treason. of deception.
of war genocide n starvation.
innocent until proven guilty.
history of pain pain more n more pain.
children mamas babas died in vain.
in vila. warsa. europa. africa.
pangea. yougo. slavia.
jerusalem allez retour.
from spain to auschwitz
from pain to auschwitz
from rage to gaza.
existenz. recht. neutral.
banal. human. tradition.
geneva. zurich. basel. bern.
lugano. convention. ending en
lengnau napoleon constitution
swiss jew frau. semit. jud.
neger. muselmann.
schweizer. kreuz. unbekannt. land.
unschuldig. beobachter. neutral.
betrachter. brun. schweig.
voelkerschau. schwitz. gold.
mark. grenze. eng.
pass. tunnel. palast.
nations. unis. money. cars. watches.
honey. milk. chocolate. bars. gold. stars.
rockets. wars. pkz. nzz. credit. suisse.
cards. masters. euro. visa. schengen.
lebensraum. alp. traum. boot. ab. schaum.
zone of interest. swissair. first class.
lots a business. gold. apartheid. nazi. jehudas.
boom boom. sr 1291 schiefe lage krumm.
bewustloser pilot am steuer. cassis.
isis. hijacked. off course. heading.
twin towers. humanity. babies.
kids. momies. sanctity.
parlament. initiative. volk.
unterschriften. sammlung. menschen.
gewissen.to: end the genocide.
end our complicity. 1933. 1945. 1948. now.
i don’t wanna get married. not sure about having kids. more physically attracted to men. feel more connected to women. am i gay? maybe, lets try. but wait. its so white. so male. so racist. so cliche. i like women in gay bars, drawn to them like the moon to the stars. but fixated held prisoner in my mind, my own distorted image of the w/right/e guy. sort of a white ken. not with barbie but with him. the white american gay white male. twerking to rupaul shaming bottoms tops his face. pretty much my nightmare guy. and after gaza, my oh my. god was i wrong. in attempting to be white male strong. discovering my colors, layers, shades, kinks n explorations. of sensuality. of sexuality. of connection, meaning and kindness. maybe you’re queer. curious to learn whats beyond your comprehension imagination of sexy hot n real. male female fusing in between who knows, gender, fluidity, essence shows. im neither tied nor freed of any gender identities realities fantasies n ideals, preference is it depends, if i feel it in here. pansexual. asexual. polyamorous. curious. liberated. queer.
I wish you saw the violence you’ve inflicted. on us. still are.
the image of every child in gaza engraved in my heart.
i saw it today. i lived it yesterday. sara. jevo. bosna. govina.
vietnam. iraq. afghanistan. yemen. chechnia. kiev. all gone.
your supremacy is violating me, triggering my trauma, again and again.
been there. hiding from the snipers. love. broken. fear.
will i die. today. tonight. far away from home at night.
what time. what day. will it be.
until the dust n gas of bombs clears
to see me.
loved. protected. safe. respected.
here. over there. gaza new york bern.
celebrating the essence of our unity.
beauty. suffering. duty.
to cry. to say nei. please no more.
bombs. cages. walls. iron domes.
for hearts. souls. spirits. doves.
dogs. cats. humans. love.
I never hated him. I’m not sure I know what hate means.
The concept of hating someone just for being. I couldn’t hate, resent, hurt a fly.
They are companions lovers reminders of our life.
Telling us to protect and nourish food waste nature
to keep moving out of curiosity and danger.
To miss tomorrow by standing here.
Watching humans animals forests burning
bleeding from all rivers to one sea.
But I admit that I felt a lot of rage, anger, resentment towards him. still.
The swiss jewish white privileged jehudi.
mourning the beheaded pic. accepting its not right to kill him. not me.
a child in gaza. crying in his tent. mama. mama. when will this end.
it began way before oct 7. schaecht. verbot.
essen nicht koscher. haram. halal.
stimme. nein. napoleon. fein.
aber nur zwei doerfer. lengnau. endingen. rhein.
ins vergnuegen. schweizer bist du jetzt.
gedehmuetigt. vertrieben. gehetzt.
in gaza. rafah. jenin. jaffa.
pack yo bags. take your belongings. go. home.
hausierer ewig hausierer. gewinner und verlierer.
der neutralen schweiz. reichtum. geiz.
beheaded babies n pigs.
beheaded minarettes figs.
olive trees. lives. bees. watermelon seeds.
seeking honey in the land where milk and honey grows.
on the wounds of plantations starvation you.
jahudi. falastini. arab. jahud. i.
Frieda
Aus der Buxe. Hexe. Frau.
Domina. Femina. Schwarz.
Blaue Fische. Blaue Sterne.
Lauern in der Ferne.
Melissa machts dir vor.
Burak auch.
Anne ebenfalls.
Get your shit together. focus. do.